Tuesday, September 30, 2014

Finding Time Again

I can't believe it has really been since June that I took the time to sit down and write on here. Looking back at the past few months I can't really be all that surprised. There have been A LOT of things that have taken place and, honestly, I don't know that I would have really been able to explain or put into words just what I was feeling through everything.

Let me start with a bit of an update and then we will go from there.

First of all both of the kiddos had a birthday (June 5 and June 18) and the hubs and I had an anniversary (June 28). This also marked the beginning of our 3rd year living in Fort Worth, Texas.

I think that we might finally be getting somewhat used to living here. We are getting more comfortable with the lay out of the city, knowing where most of the places we like to visit are at and how to get there with little use of the GPS system. I know it sounds silly but for me that is a HUGE accomplishment. Another HUGE accomplishment is that I have finally started doing more driving. It's not much really but I can say that I have been getting myself around. Again that is a silly thing to be excited about but its the little things that bring me joy. :)

At the end of June Dusty lost his job. It was a complete and sudden out of the blue firing and to this day we still don't really know what it was that he did to cause him to be fired. The only thing we can figure out is that his supervisor just really didn't like him. Since then Dusty worked as a door-to-door canvasser doing political surveying and had just recently started a new job as an appliance repair person. He seems to be enjoying this job but its still to early to tell.

With the loss of his job so close to the beginning of the semester and finances being very tricky, Dusty opted to take this semester off. I was already registered so at the end of August I jumped in to my first semester as a full time grad student. I am in class on Monday from 8-3 and on Thursday evenings from 6-9. This semester has been eating my lunch! I am realizing more and more each day just how much of a "surface Christian" have been. Never have I been challenged in my study this much. Ok, I'm not going to say never because I think there have been those in my life that have tried to challenge me to dig deeper. However, I tended to brush those people off. Now I don't have the option to just brush them off, unless of course I am looking to fail my classes (something that, if anyone really knows me can attest to, is not an option.)

To say that our financial situation has been hairy would be a bit of an understatement. In the last almost 10 years that I have been out on my own I haven't really every had to wonder how bill would be paid until these last few months. But, God always has a way of coming through in the end. I know I should really quit being so surprised each time that things just "seem to work out" because I know that things aren't that simple. And yet every time I go through the fear, and the tears, and the emotional break down only to have something happen that just makes it all better. I was told by a fellow seminary wife who had been doing this a lot longer than me that at some point you just have to go numb. I didn't really like that answer because I have been there with other issues and I'm not a fan but I am realizing that is probably going to be the only way to get through this time of being at seminary without leaving resentful or angry.

My Thirty One business has really been taking off. This month alone I will have submitted $1100 in sales! That is a personal best. I am hoping that I can keep this momentum up and even begin to grow my team. I really do love the product, and the company that I "work" for. Its great to find a company that has the same virtues that you have!

So there is the update of what has sorta been going on with us here lately. I know there so much more I could have said but I am still trying to figure out how to put everything into words. My hope is to try writing at least two times a week. I want to start sharing more of what I have been learning in school!

Until Next time!